A Lancashire mum has published a book about the tragic loss of her baby daughter at seven weeks old in the hope that her story can help others heal from grief.
Former Edge Hill student Ellis Brennan, 30, has penned A Moment in Snowdrop, which tells her journey to motherhood and experiences of being a mum to her daughter, Paige, before she passed away in November 2018 on a neonatal intensive care unit (NICU).
A Moment in Snowdrop shares an insight into the realities of loss and exposes the experiences, heartache and grief of the loss of a child.
Ellis, who is originally from Burscough, said: “Losing Paige will affect me for the rest of my life and I wanted to raise awareness of what it’s like to lose a baby and hopefully reading my story will help others who are experiencing grief to know that they’re not alone.”
Ellis experienced a normal pregnancy up until 20 weeks when doctors detected fluid around Paige’s heart, at which point she was referred to a specialist unit for further tests. Her worst fears came true when doctors informed her that Paige was severely anaemic and would need a blood transfusion in the womb.
At 37 weeks pregnant Ellis was sent for an emergency c-section after Paige didn’t respond well to a medical induction. Following complications after her birth, Paige was taken to the NICU where Ellis and her partner Dean made the agonising decision to take Paige off her ventilator at six weeks old. Paige passed away one week later with Ellis and Dean by her side.
Ellis said: “I’d been private throughout my pregnancy, but I was so proud of Paige and how strong she was that I started writing a blog about her. I suppose at first the blog was a way to help get my emotions out but it received a really positive response and people started telling me that I should write a book. When I eventually came to the end of the blog, I decided that this wasn’t the end of mine and Paige’s story.”
Eighteen months after Paige’s death, Ellis started to put her story to paper and quickly gained interest from local publishing company Beaten Track Publishing, based in Burscough.
She added: “For anyone who has experienced the grief of losing a baby or a loved one, this book might provide them with some comfort to know that there are people who understand what they are going through.”
Ellis graduated from Edge Hill in 2012 with a degree in Criminology and Sociology. She has always worked within the criminal justice system and is currently employed to supervise and rehabilitate young offenders.
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